Freedom...

Hey ya.....!!!!!
I'm happy 2 say that I'm Single and free 2 Mingle...Lol...!!!Well...,I know i sound damn happy and actually i am even though i broke up wit him...Its just that after splitting up,my day became less burden..I was smiling more and i can even hum 2 a love song..Its like there is no effect on me..I know i may sound ridiculous but maybe its because all the answer that i needed 2 know had been spilled out..

I actually know the reason why he needed sum space and i respect him 4 that..I'm not going 2 be his enemy or hate him 4 sum small stupid things instead,I'm going 2 be his friend even though i may not be that close 2 him but still..... :) ..I knew that we had 2 go our separate ways and i was prepared 2 it...My feelings 2 him started 2 fade away since yesterday as I saw his reaction towards me...It was clearly that he was hiding something from me...Anyway,we gone our separate ways already and God had really open my eyes 2 the world...He really did make me realize something...I just found out that there are so many people who have crushes on me but i was just too blind 2 c it as i was concentrating on my ex..

Miracles really do happen and its really a miracle that my feelings 4 him had faded away...I though i needed at least a week 2 get over him but it just took me less then a day or u can say a day..Well,thanks 2 God 4 everything and its just that we are not meant 2 be together...Dun worry because all is well...!!! =D ....I was just shock that it had 2 end so fast but its worth it :) ....At least now we can concentrate on our life as planned...

So,that is all about it so far...I just reveille the story of me being single and the story of me finding out about my new crushes which is all too weird...!!!Hahahaha....Lets just hope that everything will remain the same with his friends and etc...!!!I dun want 2 be in the position where i have 2 fight with everyone..Gambate ;)

Pain...

Pain......
Pain comes in many form...Its either pain in wounds,blue-black,love or etc...We will face it in our life and u can never run from it...Anyway,the story that I'm about 2 tell is about pain in love...!!!

I tried so hard 2 be there 4 u...I made myself understand about yr problems and etc..I told u everything from going out with my friends and etc...I didn't even hide nor lie 2 u but y did u do this 2 me??Wat r u trying 2 prove 2 me??I'm really hurt inside..I  sent u a good nite text every single day..I shared with u everything I know and this is yr payback??I am really blur..It was so obvious just now that u played me..U rather sit beside her than sitting beside me??I'm yr freaking gf 4 goodness sake..U know how much I hate it when u r with her but u still insist on sitting beside her??If u wanna hang out with her,I dun mind but sitting beside her when I'm around is over the limit..If u really love her and wants her 2 be yr gf then go ahead but break it off with me 1st...

I'm actually clueless about this all..I didn't want 2 believe what every1 has 2 say about u but now when I myself actually saw and heard about it,I no longer have the power 2 clear this off as I'm really hurt...!!!I didn't know that u would actually do that 2 me..I know I'm not perfect from the outside nor on the inside but I'm just being me..I thought u will be the 1 that will catch me when I fall,cheer me up when I'm down and also be there when I needed a shoulder 2 cry on but things had not been the same since I gave u space..I tried so hard not 2 text u when my fingers was itching 2 do so and I tried so hard not 2 disturb u when I needed u 2 be there 4 me...

All u ever did was take it 4 granted...U didn't read the signs of me being hurt??I was always putting a fake smile on my face when we are around with yr friends and mine..I tried so hard 2 hide it inside but it was so obvious when u pushed me away...U didn't even try 2 fix it but u just went with the flow...Am I really a cheap girl 2 u??Do u even care whats on my mind and in my heart??If u do,u would not hurt me like how u r hurting me now..I surrendered all my heart and trust 2 u but I get this in return??

U said that u have been giving stuffs and not getting it back in return but please open yr eyes and see that u have been taking more than u have been giving..U r really hopeless...I tried so hard 2 cope with u and yr situation but I dun think I can trust u anymore as u might be hiding things from me..All i cud say is that u better fix things now before its too late....


Yours truly,
A girl with a broken heart....!!!

I miss u like Crazy...

I thought this would be easy but I turned out 2 be wrong...The moment when I am with u,I feel so alive..U make me forget about all my problems and all I ever think of is u...U r my 1st thought in the morning when I wake up and my last at nightfall....U r also the love that came without warning....I really miss u...I miss yr eyes,nose,ears,lip,hug,kiss,touch and etc.......I'm trying my best 2 survive here...U r the only person who really made an impact in my life...I never felt like this before...!!!Did u cast a spell on me??

Anyway,i dun want u 2 be worry about me..Our love life is damn challenging...I know its hard but its making me stronger day by day and I want u 2 know that I'm happy...Its all that matters rite ;) ..I dunno how 2 make things clear but I would really <3 if u cud just accept things the way they r..Whether its rain or shine,earthquake or tsunami,just remember that I am always in yr heart and vice versa =D

I miss u like crazy,
Even more than words can say,
I miss u like crazy,
Every minute of every day,

Boy,I'm so down,
When yr loves not around,
I miss you,miss u,
I miss u like crazy.....


Yours truly,
Queendies..

Jealousy Part 2

When Larry told Meryl about his feelings towards her,she was astonished by his answer as she started 2 have feelings 4 him too...She secretly had feelings 4 him since they were young but didn't tell him as she thought it would affect their relationship as best friends and at that moment,she cud not afford 2 loose him..!!!So,when they fought,she took time 2 forget him and was so ego 2 apologize 2 him..So,when they were re-united again and whenever she look into his eyes,she cud still see the boy he was before and feelings started rising again till it gives her butterflies in her tummy..!!! :)

Though she knows what Larry feels,yet she still rejected him politely by saying that she is not ready being in a relationship with him...Larry took it in properly but he promised 2 himself that he will not give up..So,he tried 2 win her heart by taking her out 4 dates,buy her flowers,surprise her and etc....He even asked her 2 be his girlfriend again and again and again but she kept on rejecting him..Then,he asked her again and just when he had no hope 4 her 2 say yes,that is when she finally said agreed and said YES....!!!!She also said I <3 U 2 him and all he did was just stare at her with his eyes and ears open widely...He was just in shocked 2 hear those words from her till all he wanted 2 do was just listen 2 it again..!!He loved the way she said it..So,that is how they got together and they are still holding on 2 it till now which had been about 5mnths already..It may seems like a short while but they had gone through so many challenges which made them feel like they were together 4 a year or two...

Fast forward,Larry is also 20 years old and he loves Meryl like hell...She is his life..Everything she does will effect him..If she doesn't talk 2 him,text him or meet him,he will feel damn upset...It will affect his day...Its also the same with Meryl....Larry is everything 2 her and she cud not afford 2 loose him....

One fine day,Larry didn't reply Meryl's msg as he went 2 meet a fren named Patricia..Patricia is Larry's high school girlfriend which is his ex-girlfriend now...They broke up due 2 Patricia's problem..She claimed that she had 2 move far away frm him and she cud not be with him anymore as she is afraid of being hurt..She just made up that excuse even though its true that she will be moving away but Larry told her that he is willing 2  wait 4 her but she didn't accept it..The truth was Patricia herself..She didn't love Larry anymore and wanted 2 ask 4 a break up but didn't know how 2 do it...So,she made up stories abt being hurt and etc..Larry accepted her excuse and the break up..Two weeks later,he caught her with another guy and was questioning abt it and finally she told him the truth..She was playing behind his back all the time and wanted 2 be serious with that guy till she had 2 break it off wit Larry..!!!Larry felt like a total fool as he was just doing all the stupid jobs by fetching her and sending her everywhere when all she ever care abt was that guy..!!!He felt totally heart-broken but was relieved at the same time as he no longer had 2 be the fool he was...

Anyway,he went 2 meet Patricia in a restaurant as she just came home frm Australia...She also broke a bad news 2 Larry..!!She told him that she is no longer with that guy and was ready 2 start a new life or shud i say move forward..She also told him that she misses him and all the things he had done 4 her..She also claimed that she feels bad abt it as she acted immature..Larry said he forgave her long time ago and he made things clear by saying that he is madly in love with Meryl and will not fall 4 her tricks anymore..!!Patricia understood the situation and took it professionally...

When Larry returned home,he checked his hp and realized that he had received so many text msges and missed calls frm Meryl..So,he quickly called her up and explained the situation..Meryl knows who Patricia is frm the stories Larry told her previously but haven't met yet..So,Meryl understood the situation and advised him not 2 do that again as he made her feel so worried..!!He apologized 2 her and took her advise..He also asked her out 4 dinner as a sign of apology =D


To be continued...........!!!! :D

Missing a LOVE one is Difficult...

Sigh......!!!!!
Hey...!!!!

Being in <3 is so difficult as u will start missing the love one...Its harder if u dun even get 2 meet the person,hear his/her voice and etc...!!!Well,thats life...There must be sum ups and downs 2 make us stronger so we can face this world...
Its our one month anniversary as a couple and I'm so in love wit him..I know that I hv 2 understand the situation but its just so difficult...I hardly even see nor talk 2 him..I just feel so sad and lonely..I know he feels the same wat too but sigh...!!!I really hv no comment..!!!

Baby......!!!!!If u r listening or reading this,i wish u know that i miss u like hell and my <3 4 u is increasing day by day...!!!I wish that u r here with me so that i won't hv 2 feel so lonely and be in this situation...I tried calling u but u didn't answer my fon call...maybe its bcz u r busy..Is it so hard 2 talk 2 u?
Hmm....this is so much 2 handle...Even my own  scandal can't put a smile on my face..All i need is u but u r too far 2 been reached..!!!Baby pls save me.....!!!No matter wat happens,i will keep a SMILE on my face so that everyone cud see how happy i am...!!!!

Singer:Rascal Flatts..
Tittle:Blessed the Broken Road..

I set out a narrow way,many years ago,
Hoping i would find true love along the broken road,
But i got lost a time or two,
Wiped my brow and kept on pushing through,
I cudn't see how every sign pointed straight 2 u..

Every long lost dream led me to where u r,
Others who broke my heart,they were like northern stars,
Pointing me on my way into yr loving arms,
This much i know is true..

That God bless the broken road,
That led me straight 2 u,
Yes he did..

I think abt the years I spent,just passing through,
I'd like 2 hv the time i lost and give it back 2 u,
But u just smile and take my hand,
You've been there,u understand,
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true..

That God bless the broken road,
That led me straight 2 u..

But now I'm just rolling home into my lover's arm,
This much i know is true..

That God blessed the broken road,
That led me straight 2 u..


Yours trully,
A gurl who misses her baby boy...!!!

Jealousy Part 1

Jealousy is part of our life...How sometimes we wish we cud trade places and body with ppl..We as a human being nvr appreciate wat we hv until we loose it.!!!Jealousy comes in many form such as being jealous wit yr frens 4 having sumting that u can't hv and etc.....
This is a story abt a couple who will be facing a lot of challenges n the main thing is JEALOUSY...!!!

This is how the story goes..........
Meryl is a gurl who is tall and a little bit chubby but she looks gud as she is considered normal 4 her height..she has long dark brown hair where it reaches her hips..She also has dark brown eyes and a beautiful feature..Its wat a gurl would ask for but she doesn't seem happy wit herself as she wanted a perfect body...Its like her dream...Its every gurls dream...Meryl will turn 20 in October..She comes frm a poor family but now her life had turned out 2 be bttr as her parents burden had lessen...Meryl also have a boyfriend named Larry...

Larry is a tall guy but he is skinny..He has black short hair with a gorgeous set of eyes which would turn on the ladies...He has a beautiful structure of body which would also turn on the ladies...Anyway,they are originally best fren but they fought n lost contact 4 5years...They re-united during a frens birthday party in a restaurant..
Larry appologised 2 Meryl and told her that he misses her being around him..Since then,they became close again as Larry was keep on asking Meryl out...The both of them hung out few times n they introduced each other 2 their frens..

On 1 fine evening,Larry invited Meryl out 4 a dinner n they went 2 a beautiful restaurant which seems 2 be Larry's favourite place 2 hang out n chill...When they got there,Meryl couldn't believe her eyes as he ask the staffs there 2 arrange n decorate the area that they are about 2 sit......There were candles on the table and rose petals...It was a candle light dinner =D
They sat down and ordered their dinner and catch up abt each others life 4 the past 5years...Then,they had dessert...After dinner,Larry sent Meryl home and he confessed his feelings towards her..He told her that he really like her and those feelings came when he met her again at the birthday party...He himself couldn't believe it and he was trying 2 sort his feeling properly as they use 2 be best frens and he wouldn't want it 2 feel awkward but at the same time,he wanted 2 take care of her and was afraid of losing her again..!!!!He also told her that he is not the same guy he used 2 be..He had grown out of his shell and was ready 2 be in a relationship with her n he will do anything 4 her....She cud see that he had changed and became a  matured guy..!!!




To be continued..........................!!!!!!! =D

The New Beginning

Hey...
Today is the 1st day writing a blog and its my 1st time too..I had this crazy idea from a fren who shared her blog wit me and it stroke my mind that this is wat I'm suppose 2 do as i love telling stories and writing them down..Life had been such a hectic..There is a lot of ups and downs 2 it..
Well...we just have 2 go with the flow and remember that all is well  =D
This is just the beginning of all me..There is a lot more 2 come..
Cheers~